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It has always been very clear to me that I break a lot of the stereotypes as far as females are concerned. But every now and then, it is shown to me very foribly just how much I differ from the majority of typical women. I don't really see this as either something to regret or brag about, it's just me. For example, I have never had a haircut in the sense of having it in a particular style. My "style" is as long as it can possibly grow (not long enough for my tastes) and bangs simply because my forehead is huge. I trim my bangs if they're starting to grow into my eyes (which reminds me, I ought to be doing that soon...) and I haven't had the rest of my hair even trimmed in ages - I just can't bear to lose even a few uneven inches that I've labored so long to grow. And yes, I know if I trim it it will grow back longer - supposedly. Somehow, that's never really worked for me.

And makeup. Blech. I can't stand the stuff. It just seems so arbitrary. What makes pale skin so inherently unattractive? It didn't used to be that way, not when all the upper class was pale and only lower class was tanned. Not that I'm wanting a return to that, certainly not! But I think it just goes to show that it's totally arbitrary. And since I have a bunch of Scandinavian ancestry, I'm going to have pale skin, period. It doesn't tan much at all, I burn very easily, and I will never have the popular bronzed look. So I'm not going to do up my face like the current standard of beauty demands, because it doesn't match me. And it always feels so greasy on me, I just want to wipe it off. I also don't know how to properly apply it, and I don't care.

Shoes, clothes shopping, dressing fashionably - these are all tedious chores for me. I don't relieve stress by buying a pair of sandles; I would just feel more stressed out over spending money on someting I didn't need. I already feel like I have far too many shoes, and I have maybe four or five pairs that I wear regularly - the rest are worn out and probably would have long been replaced by the typical shoe-buying woman. I heartily dislike trying on clothes; it's so much work to figure out what properly fits and looks right on me. And I despise the constantly changing trends of fashion. My basic outfit is a shirt and jeans; any more complicated than that is just too much trouble for my tastes.

I dislike nearly all romantic comedies; I much prefer adventure, particularly of the fantastic sort. I don't do scrapbooking or most cutesy things. I'd consider a day at the spa tantamount to torture - being touched by strangers? Yech, yech, yech. I don't find manicures or facials at all relaxing; give me a good book to curl up with instead. Oh, and my nails are nearly always jagged and short - a bad habit of mine, I suppose, but I'm not sure what I'd do with super long nails.

On the other hand...I don't like sports or any of that stereotypically masculine stuff. I enjoy cleaning and cross-stitching and making the house look nice and proprly decorated (though I'm rather poor at all of those things). So it's not like I'm a tomboy. Above all else, I was raised by my mother. She has long hair, she doesn't bother with makeup or frenetic fashions, but she likes a good handful of "female" pasttimes. I suppose probably most people are a mix of stereotypes and orginal characteristics. So what am I saying? I'm trying to find my unique little niche, I guess. Or maybe make an excuse for my non-trendy clothes and weird hair. ;) I'll stop now.

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