Fantasizing

[matril]

Just visited JKR's website, and it really re-awakened my fantasies about becoming a popular author. Not because I want the fame; fame usually turns annoying pretty fast, as far as I can tell. (Not that I'd know anything about it!) But I would love to be able to pop into some discussion group or chatroom where a bunch of fans are analyzing my work, and they don't know that I'm the author and I can just watch them in amusement and pleasure. More than that, I would love to see other people care about my characters and stories as much as I do, to be able to pour out my feelings and excitement into the world in a way that they could appreciate. Of course the money would be nice too, but only because then I could write all day without worrying about finances. And how I do worry about money right now. :P Mostly, though, I just want to write.

Sigh...so why don't I attack my novel with vigorous revisions and send it in to every single fantasy publishing company? Probably fear of rejection, which I HAVE to get over. And fear of the irritating bureacracies and fine print that seem to be inherent in writing contracts. That I'll sign a deal only to discover I've signed away all my money and rights. I wish I already had tons of money so I could just self-publish. Blah. Enough excuses. I have a finished novel, and another on the way. What am I complaining about? I'm just not a risk-taker, darn it.