Ah, the good (or embarrassing) old days...

I was looking at my old posts of fan fiction for stuff worth saving onto the computer - what with moving through three states, getting married, switching around computers and what-have-you, I've lost a lot of old files. A lot of it's not worth saving - overly-sappy Anakin/Padmé stuff that doesn't fit canon anymore; bits of schlock that remind me I've improved as a writer in the last five or so years...but I figured I should at least have my own copy of Another Point of View, seeing as how it's my Big Long Epic. Even there I'm finding examples of some pretty horrible writing, but on the other hand I was pretty good at getting inside of Jar Jar's head - it makes me want to attack my Episode III/OT Jar Jar fic that I haven't touched in a while. However, more embarrassing than the writing was my comments alongside the story. I begged and pleaded for people to read and respond; I was absolutely pathetic. An actual quote from my 19-year-old self:

I'm so glad to see people reading this! I'm afraid I'm terribly insecure, and this has lessened that a great deal.

Ugh. So I was depending on my readers to fix a severe self-esteem problem? No wonder people hesitated to give any constructive criticism. ;) I hope I've grown up a little since then.

Now, someone please, please respond! I don't know what I'll do if no one responds! Oh, I'm sooo lonely! Why doesn't anyone caaaaare?

Heh.