Lab Journal Entry #45
Jun. 23rd, 2014 11:51 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
matrilJust one more left after this!
"Farewells"
Int., same motel room. Evening. TORI is lying in bed, WALTON is behind the camera.
TORI
(Feebly) Is it on?
WALTON
(VO) Yes.
TORI
(Attempts to clear throat) I don’t think I have much time left. I can hardly move.
WALTON
Then you should rest. Don’t try to talk.
TORI
I have to. (Struggles) I’ve been thinking a lot about what I did. About my choices. What else can I do, lying here and preparing for death? I know I made terrible mistakes. I have more regrets than I can count. But I still think I did right to destroy that second creature before bringing it to life. Eli was right. (Laughs weakly) He always was. I couldn’t repair one wrong by doing another. The consequences were terrible for my loved ones, but I spared the world another heartless monster. That was the right choice, wasn’t it? It had to be. I don’t know how else I could bear it.
WALTON
Tori.
TORI
(Waves feeble hand) I’m almost done. (Draws rattling breath) I make a lot of mistakes – brought so much sorrow to my family – but it all comes back to one thing. Creating life. I know why I was so driven to do it. I couldn’t see it at the time, but now it’s all so clear. (Coughs) Death was terrifying. Unbearable. I had to fight it, to make something in defiance of every force of deterioration and decay. Yet I was completely blind to the responsibility it put upon me. I abandoned my creation. Yes, that was wrong. (Hesitates) I’m sorry. That doesn’t absolve it of blame. (Struggles) I hate it. I’ll hate it with my last breath. But I’ll hate myself as well. It amounts to the same thing.
WALTON
Shh. (Tucks blankets around her.) Just rest.
TORI
You’ll post this video, won’t you? You know how to do it. I need them to know – all of you – what I was thinking at the end. So you won’t have to make the same sort of mistakes. (Her eyes flutter) There has to be some good out of all this. (Eyes close. Long pause)
WALTON
(Anxiously) Tori?
TORI
(Murmuring, eyes opening on something out of sight) Eli. (Smiles) Hannah. William. (Coughs) Can I rest? Rest would be nice. Oh (barely audible) it’s not so bad after all. What was I scared of?
WALTON
(Longer pause) Tori? (No response. She touches TORI’s forehead. Nothing) She’s gone.
"Farewells"
Int., same motel room. Evening. TORI is lying in bed, WALTON is behind the camera.
TORI
(Feebly) Is it on?
WALTON
(VO) Yes.
TORI
(Attempts to clear throat) I don’t think I have much time left. I can hardly move.
WALTON
Then you should rest. Don’t try to talk.
TORI
I have to. (Struggles) I’ve been thinking a lot about what I did. About my choices. What else can I do, lying here and preparing for death? I know I made terrible mistakes. I have more regrets than I can count. But I still think I did right to destroy that second creature before bringing it to life. Eli was right. (Laughs weakly) He always was. I couldn’t repair one wrong by doing another. The consequences were terrible for my loved ones, but I spared the world another heartless monster. That was the right choice, wasn’t it? It had to be. I don’t know how else I could bear it.
WALTON
Tori.
TORI
(Waves feeble hand) I’m almost done. (Draws rattling breath) I make a lot of mistakes – brought so much sorrow to my family – but it all comes back to one thing. Creating life. I know why I was so driven to do it. I couldn’t see it at the time, but now it’s all so clear. (Coughs) Death was terrifying. Unbearable. I had to fight it, to make something in defiance of every force of deterioration and decay. Yet I was completely blind to the responsibility it put upon me. I abandoned my creation. Yes, that was wrong. (Hesitates) I’m sorry. That doesn’t absolve it of blame. (Struggles) I hate it. I’ll hate it with my last breath. But I’ll hate myself as well. It amounts to the same thing.
WALTON
Shh. (Tucks blankets around her.) Just rest.
TORI
You’ll post this video, won’t you? You know how to do it. I need them to know – all of you – what I was thinking at the end. So you won’t have to make the same sort of mistakes. (Her eyes flutter) There has to be some good out of all this. (Eyes close. Long pause)
WALTON
(Anxiously) Tori?
TORI
(Murmuring, eyes opening on something out of sight) Eli. (Smiles) Hannah. William. (Coughs) Can I rest? Rest would be nice. Oh (barely audible) it’s not so bad after all. What was I scared of?
WALTON
(Longer pause) Tori? (No response. She touches TORI’s forehead. Nothing) She’s gone.
