![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
Entry tags:
Lab Journal Entry #46
"Gone"
Int., same motel room. Just after last episode. WALTON is sitting at TORI’s bedside, camera on the table.
WALTON
I can’t believe she’s gone. Just like that. I saw her first videos. She was so full of life...so much talent and passion. And it’s all gone now.
I guess I’ll have to notify the authorities. Make up some story about how I found her. (Sighs heavily, goes to pick up camera. Knife is sitting on the table)
CREATURE
(Off) She is my victim too.
WALTON
(Whirling jerkily, bringing camera to focus on creature at TORI’s bedside. VO) You! How – how did you –
CREATURE
(Kneeling down, still looking at TORI’s body) The window was ajar. I saw her die. (Pause) And I am her murderer.
WALTON
(VO, shaky but outraged) And now, suddenly, you feel regret? It’s a little late for that.
CREATURE
(Glancing back at WALTON, face twisted with anguish) You think this is the first time I’ve felt remorse? I’ve felt it every moment since I first ended the life of her innocent brother. (Back to look at TORI) I have suffered more than you could imagine. I did not choose to be a creature of fury and vengeance. Those forces took hold of me as surely as hunger or thirst. But every moment they held me captive was misery. Only when I succumbed utterly to cruelty did I feel any release, and those moments were fleeting. Now, seeing the wreckage of the one who was once my Maker, my misery is complete.
WALTON
Or maybe you’re just sorry she’s not around for you to torment any more.
CREATURE
I didn’t expect that you would be able to comprehend my struggles. There is no one who can sympathize with me. (Rises, gazing down at TORI) I hoped for that, once. I had the deepest sympathy for others, but they did not return it. I still think of them. I still wonder if Phillip and Sophie are married now, if Abby ever found work, if their mother received the medical care she needed. Yet they never spared any worry for my concerns. They saw only a monster to despise and fear.
(Fists tighten) And so I became a monster. I have done unspeakable things. I have destroyed one life after another, ending with the very one who gave me life. (Rounding on WALTON) You hate me? You cannot possibly hate me as much as I hate myself. (Turns around again)
WALTON
(Slowly edges toward table, reaching for the knife with a shaking hand. She hesitates) Would you be...happier if you were...
CREATURE
You can put the knife away. You won’t be needing to fulfill my Maker’s edict.
WALTON
(Draws back) Are you...going to kill me?
CREATURE
(Turning slowly) There is only one life left for me to destroy. My own. I have no desire to prolong my misery. I will travel far, far to the north, to a place as solitary as the earth contains. I will build my own funeral pyre, and set it ablaze so that no one will ever find my remains.
WALTON
(Surprised to feel pity) And you aren’t afraid to die?
CREATURE
Once I would have been. I would have wept at the thought. Never again to feel the sun’s warmth, to hear the birds sing? But I have no joy in such things now, carrying the burdens of my crimes. I can only find rest in death.
(To TORI) Good-bye, Tori. We suffered together. And now I envy you for escaping the miseries of life before me. I will follow you quickly. I will find peace; or, if not that, then the bliss of emptiness. Farewell. (Swiftly moving to the window)
WALTON
(Moves camera quickly to follow, but CREATURE is already gone) She’s gone. Lost in the darkness and distance.
no subject
However, I do have to admit that in the final instalments I did start to daydream that the characters could be "genderswapped back" without much difficulty. That, though, I can suppose might only show I can't look at things from the proper perspective.
no subject